Showing posts with label Society. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Society. Show all posts

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Inner Line Permit


Inner Line Permits

I.

The inner line in my heart
And the inner lining of my brain,
together: my Inner Lines, don't permit
Me to be sans decorum
While pointing out the insane.

They don't permit me
To slide out my knife
And slip it between the ribs
of the Nepali boy who fell
in love and took a Khasi wife

They don't permit me
to introduce his skin to petrol
and fire; to purge us of his
devilry, that unentitled, supposedly
economy consuming, leech without control.

They don't permit me
To ignore his penance -
That he has lived on this land
As long as i have and he has loved
Without giving hate or race a chance.

II.

My Inner Lines
Don't permit me to blame
The migrant labour for the follies
Of my government, for our shortcomings,
For having the hunger to work for lesser
For leaving families afar
And working in simmering danger
Amidst bare fangs dying to strip
Them off the dignity of slogging for
A hundred rupees when the bare fangs refuse
A hundred rupees as not fair market value.

My Inner Lines
Don't permit me to steal away quietly
And ambush a puja pandal 
To protest the lazyness of the assamese
Or Bengali origin, who do nothing but
Sit at homes and wait for government largesse
While we toil on the arid fields and give our gatherings
To the poorest of the poor.

If i were, occasionally tempted,
To douse and burn with petrol or slide the knife
Out, I'd do well to remember, the Nepali boy
was my dearest childhood friend and the assamese
man studied by the candlelight while
I moonlighted as romeo on the roads,
With someone else's agenda planted in my mind.


III.

We are settlers, of Mon Khmer and Shan
Extract; we have come to create
Our own rituals, art, song, dance; we
Created tradition and culture; We were indigenous,
Yet many came to believe in the Son
Of God not the sun;
We of the duitara took to
The six stringed and left behind
The devanagiri for the anglicised roman;
We morphed, evolved, coexisted as living
Culture and tradition does, and yet
We permit
Our Inner Lines
To be corrupted
By the lies and deceits,
the pretences and conceit
Of those whose mental culture
Is blood and war,
Fear mongering and power grabbing,
Sectioning and fiefdoming
Our hearts, our brains,
Our Inner Lines.

Khasi – the people indigenous to the Khasi Hills of Meghalaya, India
Assames – people from Assam, a neighbouring state.
Bengali – people who originally hailed from West Bengal.
Puja Pandal – the ornate tents constructed during the durga puja festival celebrated by the Hindus (who are in a minority in Shillong)
Mon Khmer – of cambodian origin/roots ( the Khasis are believed to have Mon Khmer origins)
Shan – of Burmese origins (the Garos who are indigenous to the Garo Hills of Meghalaya, India are believed to be of Burmese/Shan origin).
Duitara – an indigenous stringed instrument. Literally it means “two stringed”.
Devanagiri – the script in which Hindi, Sanskrit, Assamese etc. And many other Indian languages are written in.

[Note: Shillong is going through tough times- there is a huge debate that confuses economic problems with issues of culture and identity. Of late it has become politicised and has also started taking a more violent hue – a distinction has been drawn by some between the indigenous and the settlers or those who have come here for a wage. These are dangerous trajectories that call for us to examine our motives, our reasons and to really identify the problems that exist. The Inner Line Permit has been mooted as a solution – essentially, a system of permit which controls/permits/denies non-indigenous people permission to travel/stay in a particular are without having secured an Inner Line Permit. A dangerous solution that harkens back the old days of segregation that we've fought hard to overcome]

Saturday, October 12, 2013

Depression


On Depression
 
Yesterday, my heart skipped, hopped and jumped
At the sight of the tide coming in,
Free as the sliding sun, breaking a path through my
closed eyes.

This evening, i saw the tide come in, perched in much
the same space as yesterday; whether it was the same or not,
my heart still skipped, hopped and jumped, this time into
A dark pool of the unexplicable, the unexplainable,
The unascertainable.

There are
phases where i cherish company,
And then there are those times i perish
when with more than three;
Moments I run from all around,
Hiding in solitude and those moments i gravitate towards, hiding
in plainsight.
Everyday is constituted
Of these different moments,
Unshaped,unintended, unrequested,
Always lurking, always peeking, a
Always looming, always threatening
And always quick to settle,
Quick to conquer
And quick to confound.

And the day turns, as the hours do, as the tide does.

The tides, they come and they go, sometimes within the month, sometimes within the week,
Within the day, within the hour, within now. Sometimes i know,
Sometimes i don't but the tides still come and go,
Unclocked, unfettered, unstructured, unerring.

And then the tides creeps up, creeps up, creeps up upon,
Creeps up upon you, upon me, upon us, upon them. Tide no more. Tidal
Waves.

And
As i coil
Recoil, uncoil
Bounce back, come back, rise from amongst the dead,
From those accounted amongst the drowned.
Present myself, show myself, tentatively extent a hand,
An olive branch to them, to some, and to you,
Fresh from being swept back to the beach by the tide,
With my pride in hand and eyes down, I see them
Glazed from not seeing which is a mercy small. I see some
slide a look accusing me of being comer and goer,
Of being a person who picks his moments. They are
unlike you, whose heart is large and warm, welcoming
And embracing of another whose moments pick him. But you
Are one, are solitary, are only, are mono, and your patience is
immense and arms strong, strong enough to hold, to embrace,
to hold steady, for only so long, for only so many turns of the tides.

Maybe i might, maybe i should, maybe i could
Reveal, the contradictions that define
The sudden swell, the quicker fall, the surprising calm.
If i tell you that i cannot live without
the silence encountered at three a.m.. Calm.
Till this calm, every now and then, reveals a guttural timbre when the silence
hums, humms, hummms, hummmms
To a small, steady beat of midnight peaked, a beat that
Gathers around and begin a propulsive roll that forments
The thoughts already latent, thoughts that grow
Long, unwieldy, erratic shadows, that open doors hiding sunshine
and doors hiding the darkness of the night. That each propulsive roll
Leads to a different door, not doors. A door
Behind which hides only one. Not a choice, not russian
Roulette, only a rigged game, only a rigged game.

But if you wait, if you could wait,
There will be a door, behind which
The sunshine will be swept ashore by the tide. And if you wait some more,
And help me wait,maybe the tide will come in
Once more, as a tide, as a tide. And everyday will
Be better, will be better.

On depression:

I have met many people who have gone through depression, in one form or the other. Many were themselves unaware that they were suffering from depression. Often, people react to depression in terms of the symptoms they see. Erratic habits, excesses ranging from over eating to loss of appetite, to sleep disorders, to social complexes etc. The processes that makeup, influence and cause depression are complicated, ranging from the social to the scientific.

According to WHO, more than 350 million people worldwide suffer from depression. Think about that. 350 million. The odds are not good. Figures stacked up? Someone in your family or immediate circle of friends could be battling depression right now.

Another report pegs the depression stats (their definition differs from WHO) at 121 million. Still 121 million. According to the same report, more than 36% of the reported Major Depressive Episodes, in the world, occurs in India. Think about that. 36% of any disease, leave aside a mental health disease, being reported in India. A country not famous for medical incidents being reported at all. Whatever way the statistics work, and i have not done enough fact checking to boldly state one way or the other, the bottomline is that Depression is Prevalent. Depressingly prevalent.

If you know someone, or suspect that someone is suffering from depression, reach out to them. Be patient, be gentle. Help them get help, if necessary. Above all, a bit of peace, love and understanding.

Today's Prayer

Friday, October 11, 2013

Of Shillong Burning, the Courage to Stand, Why Do the Good Die Young and A Voice that Haunts Me




I. Burning

The Shillong Times reports that a special court will be set up to try cases of arson and other crimes committed as part of the ILP agitation. You can access the article here: http://www.theshillongtimes.com/2013/10/04/defining-moment-for-meghalaya/

What is worrying is that in a city of 143,000, a bulk of whom are educated, there is hardly any encouraging dialogue or even conversations happening about the issues. The entire debate seems to be hijacked by a particular kind of voice. Whether the voice is right or wrong, the absence of (and perhaps the absence of space?) for multiple voices is conspicuous by its absence.

What justifies violence? What justifies hate? What justifies cruelty? Where is the root of our anguish? What are we doing to address the real causes? Reading reports such as this: http://www.theshillongtimes.com/2013/10/11/tension-ridden-durga-puja/ saddens me immensely.

Being from Shillong, i spent five years in Bangalore and more than three in Delhi and, yes, there are people just like a lot of us there. They wear similar attitudes and hold similar notions close to their hairy chests.  Are there stereotypes? Yes. Can they be overcome? Yes. Did my origins matter? Not too most but to some. For most, who i was and what i did was more important. What i also learned is that those who bought into and perpetuated the stereotypes did so for two reasons: (i) they were too lazy to think and it was the easiest thing to buy off the shelf of past by expiry date thoughts; or (ii) they were so trapped by their situation that believing and perpetuating such stereotypes was a way for them to feel good about themselves.

The bottom line? We are now behaving like slaves to stereotypes, handed-down, long worn out notions that don't bear closer scrutiny for the most part.

Why love when you can hate seems to be what we have come to embrace.

II. The Courage to Stand

The story of Malala Yousafzai is so empowering and very well known by now. I was impressed by what she had to say when she was interviewed by Jon Stewart of the Daily Show.
Listen for yourself:



Lord, give us the courage to stand, to look inside ourselves and smell the rot.

III. Why do the Good Die Young?

There is a kind of people, those that are epoch defining, generation shifting and when they have marked the land where they stand, they disappear. For good. I have recently discovered Craig Arnold and was blown away by his poetry. More than the art and the skill, his philosophy, the way he saw things. Those stand out. Like that other great loss Jeff Buckley (swimming) he died when he was communing with nature, on a trek.

Lines for painting on grains of rice  got me hooked. Permanently.

Lines like these:

Love is like velocity we feel the speeding up
            and the slowing down otherwise not at all
the more steady the more it feels like going nowhere
            my love I want to go nowhere with you

This is a good place to start, if you are so inclined: http://www.poetryfoundation.org/bio/craig-arnold#poet

IV. A Voice that Haunts
To think that Steve Wold could have gone through his life unheard. How fortunate are we that into his sixties and spurred on by his health, he decided to share his gift in such a grand way. Seasick Steve.


 
THE decision taken by the MUA-2 Government to set up a special court to try cases related to arson and other crimes committed as part of the ILP demand agitation, could not have come a day later. This is a landmark decision that a government mandated to govern has done and perhaps should have done much earlier. The Supreme Court order is a lever for all state governments to use against groups involved in disruptive activities that bring all functions of private and public institutions to a grinding halt. That the state government is also computing the quantum of loss occurred due to disruption in its functioning and also the loss to public property is a welcome breather for many who watch in frustration at the rapid deterioration of law and order in Meghalaya, if not its complete absence
Read more at http://www.theshillongtimes.com/2013/10/04/defining-moment-for-meghalaya/#jgB8H3ZgRUr5Mcqd.99
THE decision taken by the MUA-2 Government to set up a special court to try cases related to arson and other crimes committed as part of the ILP demand agitation, could not have come a day later. This is a landmark decision that a government mandated to govern has done and perhaps should have done much earlier. The Supreme Court order is a lever for all state governments to use against groups involved in disruptive activities that bring all functions of private and public institutions to a grinding halt. That the state government is also computing the quantum of loss occurred due to disruption in its functioning and also the loss to public property is a welcome breather for many who watch in frustration at the rapid deterioration of law and order in Meghalaya, if not its complete absence
Read more at http://www.theshillongtimes.com/2013/10/04/defining-moment-for-meghalaya/#jgB8H3ZgRUr5Mcqd.99
THE decision taken by the MUA-2 Government to set up a special court to try cases related to arson and other crimes committed as part of the ILP demand agitation, could not have come a day later. This is a landmark decision that a government mandated to govern has done and perhaps should have done much earlier. The Supreme Court order is a lever for all state governments to use against groups involved in disruptive activities that bring all functions of private and public institutions to a grinding halt. That the state government is also computing the quantum of loss occurred due to disruption in its functioning and also the loss to public property is a welcome breather for many who watch in frustration at the rapid deterioration of law and order in Meghalaya, if not its complete absence
Read more at http://www.theshillongtimes.com/2013/10/04/defining-moment-for-meghalaya/#jgB8H3ZgRUr5Mcqd.99
THE decision taken by the MUA-2 Government to set up a special court to try cases related to arson and other crimes committed as part of the ILP demand agitation, could not have come a day later. This is a landmark decision that a government mandated to govern has done and perhaps should have done much earlier. The Supreme Court order is a lever for all state governments to use against groups involved in disruptive activities that bring all functions of private and public institutions to a grinding halt. That the state government is also computing the quantum of loss occurred due to disruption in its functioning and also the loss to public property is a welcome breather for many who watch in frustration at the rapid deterioration of law and order in Meghalaya, if not its complete absence
Read more at http://www.theshillongtimes.com/2013/10/04/defining-moment-for-meghalaya/#jgB8H3ZgRUr5Mcqd.99
THE decision taken by the MUA-2 Government to set up a special court to try cases related to arson and other crimes committed as part of the ILP demand agitation, could not have come a day later. This is a landmark decision that a government mandated to govern has done and perhaps should have done much earlier. The Supreme Court order is a lever for all state governments to use against groups involved in disruptive activities that bring all functions of private and public institutions to a grinding halt. That the state government is also computing the quantum of loss occurred due to disruption in its functioning and also the loss to public property is a welcome breather for many who watch in frustration at the rapid deterioration of law and order in Meghalaya, if not its complete absence
Read more at http://www.theshillongtimes.com/2013/10/04/defining-moment-for-meghalaya/#jgB8H3ZgRUr5Mcqd.99
THE decision taken by the MUA-2 Government to set up a special court to try cases related to arson and other crimes committed as part of the ILP demand agitation, could not have come a day later. This is a landmark decision that a government mandated to govern has done and perhaps should have done much earlier. The Supreme Court order is a lever for all state governments to use against groups involved in disruptive activities that bring all functions of private and public institutions to a grinding halt. That the state government is also computing the quantum of loss occurred due to disruption in its functioning and also the loss to public property is a welcome breather for many who watch in frustration at the rapid deterioration of law and order in Meghalaya, if not its complete absence
Read more at http://www.theshillongtimes.com/2013/10/04/defining-moment-for-meghalaya/#jgB8H3ZgRUr5Mcqd.99
THE decision taken by the MUA-2 Government to set up a special court to try cases related to arson and other crimes committed as part of the ILP demand agitation, could not have come a day later. This is a landmark decision that a government mandated to govern has done and perhaps should have done much earlier. The Supreme Court order is a lever for all state governments to use against groups involved in disruptive activities that bring all functions of private and public institutions to a grinding halt. That the state government is also computing the quantum of loss occurred due to disruption in its functioning and also the loss to public property is a welcome breather for many who watch in frustration at the rapid deterioration of law and order in Meghalaya, if not its complete absence
Read more at http://www.theshillongtimes.com/2013/10/04/defining-moment-for-meghalaya/#jgB8H3ZgRUr5Mcqd.99
THE decision taken by the MUA-2 Government to set up a special court to try cases related to arson and other crimes committed as part of the ILP demand agitation, could not have come a day later. This is a landmark decision that a government mandated to govern has done and perhaps should have done much earlier. The Supreme Court order is a lever for all state governments to use against groups involved in disruptive activities that bring all functions of private and public institutions to a grinding halt. That the state government is also computing the quantum of loss occurred due to disruption in its functioning and also the loss to public property is a welcome breather for many who watch in frustration at the rapid deterioration of law and order in Meghalaya, if not its complete absence
Read more at http://www.theshillongtimes.com/2013/10/04/defining-moment-for-meghalaya/#jgB8H3ZgRUr5Mcqd.99

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Existentialism or Existential Crisis or Deconstruction of a Young Mind?

"The mind is an excellent servant but a terrrible master"

Last post, i started with "Something. Has. Been. Bothering. Me". This  time, i won't (i didn't). Started like a manufactured essay with that quote, though. Well, that may be because this is titled "Existentialism or Existential Crisis or Deconstruction of a Young Mind?" but i don't care. After all, should we not apply the rule: "The world is full of apathy and i don’t care". There, i have successfully managed to derail what was supposed to be a thoughtful introduction because context is everything (or was it king?), right?



I. The "I" Question

I am,
I am circled in,
I am encircled by
Religion's sin

I am,
I identify,
I am identified by
Identity

Am I
Aroused by
An imagined, enacted
Reality?

Am I
What's been whispered to me
That I am
Supposed to be?

Am I
A plasticine man
Told and played
Conducted and directed?

Am I who I'm told I am?

II. The "Who Is" Question?

Science and questions,
Answers and religions,
The what do you knows,
The who do you knows,
The problem of origin,
The problem of original sin,
No one knows, no one knows.

Starting assumptions,
Incomplete explanations,
Designed or a dance with chance?
Neither is here,Neither is there,
Each begins with
A leap of faith, A leap of faith.



III. The "Choice" Answer 

Pacifists, realists
Apologists, rationalists,
Crusaders, crucifiers,
Perpetrators, actors,
Populists, artists,
Creationists, scientists,
I could be all,
I could be none,
I could be another,
But I'd rather
Be a constant,
The common human denominator.

.............................................................................

For those interested in an engaging conversation (yes, Richard Dawkins is featured - he is one of the best firestarters i know) somewhat related to the theme that this piece tries to address (touch upon is perhaps a better choice of words. egads), you could do worse than consider this as your debate kickstarter:





Whats interesting to note is that Richard Dawkins places himself at a 6 out of 7, an "unlikelyist". What an honest position to take! After all, the absence of proof is no proof neither is it proof that no proof can exist. Neither here nor there.  Ultimately, we all begin (or end with) a leap of faith. If we don't, then we must be prepared to sleep with an incomplete, imperfect picture.

As for me, i know that i'd - in the least - always want to be  humanist.

Unrelated:

And since it is already 1:30 in the morning and i should be either studying or sleeping, this should help me (and you, if you should ever need a mood-setting @ 1:30  a.m)

I love this song about as much as i love Hallelujah. Leonard Cohen is a poet. All good lyricists have to be. There are some other pretty extraordinary and distinct versions by Adam Cohen, Joe Bonamassa and Katey Sagal. Each deserves a listen, each does.

Sunday, September 29, 2013

Shillong Bandh. Protest, Space,Dissent, Resent, Violent.


Something. Has. Been. Troubling. Me. 

Why do we do bandhs the way we do them in Shillong? Why are bandhs in Shillong so all pervasive? I'm a great believer in protest, space for dissent, and the right to stand for what you believe in. After all, we are a democracy, aren't we? We have pretensions of having been democratic (culturally) even before the current administrative structures were introduced in the Khasi Hills (a claim that i have a few quibbles with) so i am thrilled when people stake a claim in governance and fight for their right.

What worries me, irks me even, is when people start literally fighting for their right. Don't get me wrong - there are fundamental, epoch changing times when people literally fight for their right. I don't believe that we are there yet. We are not slaves (other than the myriad forms of slavery that we subject ourselves to) nor are we subjugated (again, other than in ways that we unwittingly allow ourselves to be subjugated).

These past few weeks, bandhs and blockades have been called by various groups - denizens of the broad-brush term "Civil Society". The issue that has serve to underwrite these actions is the call for the Inner Line Permit (ILP) to be implemented here, a complex and multi-dimensional beast that is not the focus of this post. Bandhs, blockades, picketing, protest marches, sit-ins, these are powerful tools in any discourse. For one, i am delighted that there is space for such protest, that there is a voice given to dissent. We are all better for it. I'll tell you why: it focuses attention on the issue at hand and acts as the precursor to dialogue.

Bandhs are called for and are adhered to en masse. Does that mean that everyone agrees with the bandh and the purposes it was called for? Why is it that practically every bandh is wholly subscribed to? Not a soul venturing out, not a pair of eyes peeping out. I have heard so many views on the ILP from so many different people. Some compelling, some flimsy, some thought through, some emotional. All that it tells me is that there are people with views spread across the gradient and shades of views on this topic. Why, then, are bandhs fully subscribed to?

Why is it that every office is deserted? Why is it that someone exercising their voice of dissent, of protest must curtail my right to continue living my day-to-day? Sometimes i wonder whether this constitutes an abuse of the right to protest. If we have rights, should we not respect them and respect the way we use them? Why should i not be able to buy a loaf of bread or fresh vegetables? Why should a daily wage earner lose out on his earnings? Is life coming to a complete stand still the only way to protest?

Why is it that if a friend opens his stall to sell newspapers and magazines, that he is liable to be thrashed? Is opening of his stall so big an offence? Or is that we think: "if you are not with me, then you are against me". If that is how we are then we commit two grave sins: (a) we over simplify; and (b) we abuse our right and space to protest. Why? Simply because our space to protest and voice dissent stems from the roots of tolerance, acceptance and plurality. It is what makes a democracy effective.

Heck, protest by all means. Call for a bandh or picketing. I may or may not agree with the issue, the reading of an issue or the solution proposed to an issue. I still want to be able to walk to Police Bazar, pick up my newspaper, buy tea from the little boy sitting in the corner with his kettle and watch people live. Maybe i will read Civil Society group X's position in the newspaper and agree with it and walk up to join their protest march. Maybe. As long as i am not co-erced, as long as i am not told what it is that i must believe, as long as i arrive at the conclusion myself having considered and weighed other possibilities.

Perhaps, we need to start looking at dialogue. Protests underscores an issue. The elephant in the room has been pointed at, its the subject of conversation. We need to move to converse, to dialogue. As long as we argue, as long as we claim the rightness and sanctity of the narrative that we peddle, we will never reach a meeting of minds. We will stand apart, pelting stones from our glass houses because we don't dialogue, don't find grounds to meet and are too lazy too look for other options or alternatives. Effective dialogue demands that we shed the narrowness of our vision, the self-serving nature of our actions. Are we in a position to do that? Is it in the actors/stakeholders interests to do that?

Post Script: Oh, and if i believe in something with all of my heart, i will die for it. In a way that will shame you, taint you, undermine you forever with its moral force. Something like a fast to death. I won't kill you, maim you or break you if i deeply believe in something. After all, if all of you were to die, who would be left who believes? It would be only me and frankly, that'd be lonely.


Musical Notes for These Times (blog's theme etc....):